The day you left

my heart was broken.

Why was it all over?

Every day I pick up pieces

finding out my trauma

and hoping it fixes.

I didn’t want you to leave

I would have never left you

even though we weren’t meant to be

I would’ve stayed to help you.

I never felt enough for you

and I still chose to stay

that’s cuz I loved you more than me

not in the right way.

I still think of you from time to time

not really knowing why.

Is it my ego or do I still care?

Do I want you back or life just isn’t fair?

I ask myself if I would ever take you back

and I know that I wouldn’t

even if I spent a lifetime thinking of you,

I couldn’t.

I wouldn’t take you back

because with you I was always hurt

I can’t remember a good day

I hope you would actually care.

So, I’ll be alone thinking of you

not knowing why I hurt

but I will never message you

I hope you never learn.

Maybe, I’ll cry every night

maybe this feeling will never end

maybe we’ll meet in another lifetime

to have another chance again.

But maybe not

and that’s okey

I love myself now

and in the right way.

Selflove